To Be Happy You Must Find Yourself

All of my life I have been told that happiness was a choice however I really never believed this phenomenon. I have always let external events and people control my happiness as mentioned in a previous post. I always thought that others controlled my happiness and I could not do anything to change it because external events were triggers for my unpleasant feelings. It has been said that in order to love another you must love yourself first and this is absolutely true however I really never found this to be true as well, that is until recently.

 Recently I experienced a major setback that threw me a loop and I was not sure what I was going to do and I felt so confused. Instead of going to a negative point of view I decided that this is the time to change and I decided from this moment onward I wanted to change who I was. No longer was I going to let others control my destiny but I was going to actively change my life for the better. During my low point you can say that I lost myself but it was not a bad thing because the part of me that I lost was the negative and doubting person I used to be, I lost the girl who always cared what others thought about her, and I lost the girl who constantly needed approval to know she was doing well in life. I found a strong and confident woman who was always willing to go the extra mile to do the right thing. I found a woman who will help others in any situation, I found a woman who is one with God and who absolutely loves and adores him. I found a woman who is legitimately happy and who wishes only happiness on others.  I am a woman who loves others for who they are, no longer do I judge others but rather I accept their differences and look at how we can work together to better enhance the world.

There is no way I could have gotten to the place without my family, my friends, and people who I can legitimately talk to about issues in my life. Perhaps the greatest factor that allowed me to find myself was TBI. About a month ago I walked into the Friday night service and I was welcomed by everyone with welcome arms. I was extremely nervous because I had never been to a service before however from the minute I walked into the sanctuary I was welcomed and felt one with God. I am so grateful for this experience and ever since I walked in that Friday I wanted to become more involved so I am actively involved in TBI events and I even joined the sisterhood. I look forward to Friday nights each and every week.

Finally I would like to thank everyone who helped me get to this place because I finally found myself and the true woman I am supposed to be. I am so extremely thankful for everyone who helped me I am eternally grateful. I have found the true me and I can proudly say I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life.